What a day!

I was verrrrrrry irritated by one of our nurses today. oh em geeee. like forrealll, i know that i was making a face at her tho. haha. like i was doing my best to keep a straight face & just listen to the crap she was saying. but i know it probably looked like i was mad. shoot. i dont really care tho. she does this ALL the time. and it was the first time i actually stood up for myself. like, how are you going to give me your incomplete paperwork, expect me to do it, follow up on your patients for you, & then when i question you about details related to the patient, you say i worry about it too much? come on now. do your job so i can do mine.

AND!!! this old nurse had the nerve to say, "that's why i'm telling you blah blah blah..." wow, really? a minute ago, you didn't even know that until i told you. and now YOU are the one telling me? whatever tho. just because i'm young and new doesn't mean i don't know anything. she's lucky i stayed professional. unlike her. raising her voice and crap. irritated me soooo bad! siiiiiiiiiiiggggggggggh! its ok. the day is over and i finished my job. as long as my job gets done, i can sleep.

besides, i'm moving back next month :) my family & a couple friends know. but that's the plan! my boss doesn't know yet. anyway, details on my next blog!

<3,
Am

Ok so its not that crazy.. But it was so clear. Almost like I was really living it. Weird... Haha

Last night I had a dream I was watching a movie in a theater. It was a theater that looked more like a classroom. We had desks to put our snacks on. No one sat in groups. It seemed like it was a "singles only" theater. Haha idk? People were sitting in every other chair. The movie was about to go on and I realized it was like a horror film. So when it got dark, I got up out of my seat to leave. Then I guess I knocked over this girls snacks. And I was scared of her so I had to put it back together... Haha! Idky? Ok so then I'm finally able to leave, I get out and I'm in this mall. Kinda looked like great mall but more spacious. I'm trying to find a why out and the I end up walking in a neighborhood.

The houses were town houses, kinda like the neighborhood I grew up in when I has a kid. It must have been cold because I had my pink polka dot comforter wrapped around me. It seemed like I was wearing wat I was wearing in reality. Does that make sense? The clothes I wore to sleep were the clothes I was wearing in my dream. Hahaha ok. So I'm walking around and then the pavement turns to dirt, and then to sand and before I knew it, I was at the beach. When I got to the beach, it looked like I was on another planet. Hahaha the moon and the sky looked really weird. It seemed like the sun was setting. Anyway, I turned around and the town houses were still there. But now there were lots of trees. So I felt like I made a wrong turn so I started walking back to where I came from.

So I'm walking, then I reach this area with a bunch of tarp tents and our whole youth group is sitting at a table. I look around and we are all basically in some foreign country. So we're chillen there for a while. It was a cloudy looking place. For some reason, I was thinking Indonesia. Anyway, we all get up and start walking towards this plaza. But we all see fireballs falling from the sky in the distance. A few friends & I were at one end of the plaza while the younger kids in the group were way ahead of us. Then we see this massive fireball coming towards us. Then specks of the fire (idk its really called) fell on charlie! So we all run towards him & try to get the fire out. It was on his ear, then spread to his clothes. The techniques we were using weren't working. So I finally took my blanket and tried to cover the flames with that. It works in the movies right? Haha and idk why I was still wearing my blanket. Anyway. The fire wasn't like a flaming fire. Looked like it was trying to go inside and it started to glow like gold or something. So now we're all freaking out. And he screams like how they do when people are in pain in the movies. So I pat him down and hug him tight with my blanket. Then I woke up.

I had to share. Its the most vivid dream I had in a while.

<3,
Am

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!!!

Ugh! Idk how much more I can take! I'm so tired of this! I'm reluctant to go to work!!! I'm irritated on a daily basis.

Why oh why did I tell the apartment management that I would be staying here for 12 months? I'm going to the management office after work to check how much I would owe if I broke the agreement... Because I cannot take it anymore!

If I can afford to pay it, then I can leave! I don't need to stay. And why should I have to? Right? If God says to stay, then I will. But if I can go home, then I'm going home!

-Am

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My last day :(

Of having cable. I have decided to cancel my cable(including basic) & landline. Everything I watch on tv can be watched on the internet :) and maybe I can be more productive without my cable! And landline? Idk wat I was thinking! Very helpful tho when I've misplaced my phone *sigh* Cable & phone, u gots to go!

<3,
Am

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Really?

I'm so annoyed right now. Its not even funny.

Argh! Whatever... The work day is thisclose to being over & I'm going home tmrw :)

<3,
Am

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5 months!

Can u believe it? Tomorrow is 5 months since I moved to this stinky town! Wow...

Well, its been a struggle... But I survived it & I'm continuing to survive it. Its made me stronger :) Thank You Lord for getting me through it!

Maybe it would have been an easier transition from dependent to Miss Independent if I was a couple hundred miles closer to home... It was like, BAAAAMMM! Goodbye family, friends, everything else! Ur on ur own! LOL its ok... I am thankful for everything I've experienced here. Good, bad, awkward. Hahaha I had to experience it all for a reason :)

I'm excited for these upcoming months tho :)

<3,
Am

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Funny funny

I answered the phone with my usually greeting. Then this guys goes uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I think I dialed the wrong #. Hahah seriously. His "uh" lasted a really long time. It was so funny. He said sorry, he was trying to reach a bank.

Lol idk. Ok.

<3,
Am

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Prison

I wanna work in one. Like forrellll!

I met a nurse who worked in one a few months ago & she liked it! Whats seriously holding me back from applying to one are my parents & bf. Doesn't sit too well with them... Hehe and I totally understand. But its something that I've always wondered about since I finished nursing school.

I wanna at least try working in a prison. Even if its just for a few months. Doesn't hurt to try!

<3,
Am

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Prayer request

For anyone who may come across this blog...

Please pray for my grandma Rosalia (my dad's mom.) She's in the PI & she's very sick.

Thank you & God bless

<3,
Am

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Wow.

Today is gonna be a crazy day. I could tell already, just because of the news I received this morning.

Lord, be my guide. Give me wisdom as we try to resolve these issues today. Lord, I rebuke feeling fearful & nervous, in the name of Jesus! I pray that You take my worries & stress away Lord. You have the power to resolve issues that seem impossible. I trust in You Lord! Glory to Your name Jesus! No weapon formed against me shall prosper! I am victorious in Christ Jesus! Hallelujah!

<3,
Am

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