You can't be in a relationship with someone if you don't trust them.
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Embarrassing!!!

Omggggg... I walked out of my house to help my mom with the groceries in a tank top & my lavendar sheep pajamas with my hair looking like a hot mess... Its the afternoon. & I didn't know my gangsta neighbors were outside... So they saw me... Ughhhh I feel so embarrassed!!! Hahaha

<3,
Am

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Marriage

Ok. So its one thing when I talk about wanting to get married, but I find it super irritating when people tell you or your boyfriend that you NEED to get married or that its time... Really?? YOU know that its time for me to get married? How come I didn't know about this?

Like, what's it to you? Its our life & we will get married when we want to. Obviously, we aren't ready AND we don't have a strong conviction that now is the time to get married... Why are we not ready? Because we both don't have jobs to provide for ourselves. Unlike some people, I believe being able to provide for yourself & for your family is a sign of being ready to get married. In this day & age, love isn't enough. Love sure don't pay the bills...

And don't you think God would put it in our hearts when the time is right to get married??? Just cuz a 'friend' says, "its time" does not mean that it is.

I don't know. I'm just so irritated every time I hear certain people talk about it with my boyfriend. Our future is none of your business.

How do you even respond to a person like that? This happens alllll the time & that's why I've chosen to distance myself from them. *sigh*

<3,
Am




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Ok...

So, after watching Gangland tonite, I have got to admit, I'm a liiiiittttle bit creeped out by how dangerous some inmates are... BUT after reading some forum discussions about how it is for a nurse to work in a correctional facility, it doesn't seem that bad... Haha

Anyway, someone made a comment about a decision I made recently... I was kinda bugged by it. Didn't react to the comment though, I just let it slide. But its still bugging me.

Ughh whatever though. Its just one of those things when I just need to remind myself that it doesn't matter what people think or say about me or the things I've done. I don't need to explain myself to people. As long as I have the support of my family & close friends, I'm good! God has a plan for me :)

I can honestly say I have no regrets about anything I've done & if I had to do it all over, I would do everything the same. I wouldn't be who I am if it weren't for the things I've experienced in the past.

<3,
Am


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Job Hunting!

So far, the places that are hiring or will be hiring in the near future are all outside of San Jose!

For real tho, I'm really going to try now. No more lazyness! Come on! I can do this! The job the Lord has set aside for me is out there. I know it! I feel it! Haha seriously tho! Its there.

I'm really excited...

<3,
Am

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Move back to Bakersfield?

Yesterday, I got an offer to move back & work at my previous job. My answer? NO! In the nicest way possible...

Seriously?? It was my decision to leave in May. Why would I want to go back? He said I missed my opportunity to become a director. Ehhh, that's what he thinks. My God is greater & He will open doors that no one can open. And who says I want to be a nursing director? Not everybody aspires to be a Director of Nursing...

Thanks, but no thanks!

<3,
Am

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