Wow.

I'm training someone to take my place right now & going over everything is crazy! Its my last day tmrw! I'm kinda sad but also very excited :D

its been fun bako!

<3,
Am

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:D

The day after tomorrow is my last day!!! And my friends will be visiting! Yaaaay!

<3,
Am

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THANK YOU :D

I love You Lord! Thank You Lord for the blessings in my life! I am soo grateful for the doors You have opened for me! Thank You for the lessons I have learned & for the trials I have gone through! I am stronger because of it! You taught me to continue to trust & have faith in You! You have always provided & You calmed my biggest fears. Thank You for Your favor! I am beyond blessed because of Your love for me! Thank You for never letting me go!

Thank You Lord for closing this chapter in my life! & Thank You for the people I have worked with during the last 6 months! But there are more places to go & more people to meet :)

I don't know what's ahead of me but I feel so excited for what's to come! I love You :D

<3,
Am

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LOLs of the day!

Earlier today the bf was talking about how he needed to buy facial cleanser. He said he needed to "refill my stash." I heard "feel my stash," so I reached over & felt his mustache & he gave me a 'what r u doing' kind of look. I was all "what? U said to feel ur stash." Hahahah omg...

Then I heard my sister say, "I smell ammonia." And I said, "hello, you just painted ur nails!" She replied, "what? I asked how do u spell pneumonia?"

Hahaha wooow!

<3,
Am

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Saturday morning in ESSJ

I like hearing the drum line/marching band practice. It makes me feel like there's something more to this neighborhood besides the stupid uneducated wangsta neighbors that live here. Hahaha

Go Sixers!!!

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Am

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Oh em geee man!

Gosh! FB is making me so sad... Maaaan like, I get that you can be with someone for YEARS and then in the end it doesn't work out. Yea, that sucks but what can u do? Stuff like that will happen. But I don't get why people cheat. If its not working out & u start getting feelings for someone else, at least do the right thing and break up first... Don't be a coward! Its not cool to break up with the girl u have been with for years and then put that u went from "in a relationship" to "single" then the following week u put up that ur w/someone else and that "single" went to "in a relationship."

Dang man! Why r some people so freakn heartless?! Ehhh, its just so freakn high school to see that stuff on fb, ukno? How many years have u been out of hs? Its been a while buddy, time to grow up!

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Am

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Last!

This is the last thursday night I have to pack for a weekend in ESSJ! Next week, ill be going home on sunday. But ill be coming back monday with my parents suv to pick up my bed! Then that's it!

Buh-bye BAKERSFIELD!

<3,
Am
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can't sleep -___-

I'm thinking about creating a new blog... This little adventure out here in Bako is about over... and I kinda wanna start fresh... June1st maybe? I have to think of a name for my blog. Then I'll post a link here & on twitter if anyone is interested... hahaha

but yea... I can't sleep D: I have a lot on my mind tonight... *SIGH* IDK why I'm feeling like this today... feeling kinda bluuuue :( yeaaaa. I'm feeling kinda saaaad...

Oh! and a few nights ago, I had a dream about searching for a psychology textbook. I basically searched all throughout the house. I felt like I sooo knew where it was but each place I looked, it still wasn't there! In my dream, I didn't want to wake up because I knew that it was somewhere, I just had to find it... It was pretty weird. I felt like I was soo close to finding it tho... What could my dream possibly mean??

hmmm... anyway, I better try to get some sleep! I usually try to sleep around 10-1030. It's way past my bedtime. Goodnight!

<3,
Am

Song of the night :D

Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper
I love you
Birds singin' in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me

Say "nighty night" and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me
you'll miss me.
While I'm alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me

Stars fading but I linger on..
dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger til dawn..
dear
Just saying this

Sweet dreams til sun beams find you
Sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you.
But in your dreams, whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger til dawn
dear
Just saying this..

Sweet dreams til sun beams find you
Sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you
But in your dreams. whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

"Dream A Little Dream"
sung by Kevin McHale

Tomorrow is Thursday!

My giant suitcase is packed! My closet is almost empty! I have a box full of books and notebooks that's ready for me to put in my car! Eeeeeee! I'm kind of excited these days :D

<3,
Am

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Got my hair did!

Ok not really. She just cut & styled it. However, it was the first time in 24 1/2 years that a non-asian cut my hair. Having lived in ESSJ my whole life, you would have to pay hundreds of dollars for a CHANCE to not have an asian cut ur hair. And that's just a chance, most likely an asian would still end up cutting ur hair!

So today was a total culture shock for me... Hahahaha I had a nice girl cut my hair. She was friendly & easy to talk to. She wasn't asian. She was a red headed white girl. When u first walk into the salon, they had carpet. The salon advertised itself as a modern salon... Ummm. I felt like I was really in bako. They even had country music playing throughout the whole salon. Modern? Uh I don't think so... They charge $45 for a hair cut. From the looks of the place, you'd think they wouldn't charge you more than $20... Hahaha I was the ONLY non white person there. I felt eyes on me... Haha whatever. OH!!! She pulled one of those "people with ur type of skin color/people who have dark skin like u" kind of comments on me... Hahaha really tho? U think I'm dark? I'm NC40... Uhh I'm not that dark... Sheeeesh!

Anyway. My cut was aiiite.. Ill probably hit up my boy KEVIN in ESSJ when I move back! Hahaha his salon has consistently given me nice cuts for the past 2 years. Unlike some other salon where I'd have split ends in a couple weeks... Ughhh.

I'm excited for tmrw! Its wednesday! Which means we are half way through the week!!!

<3,
Am


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This probably sounds weird...

But I'm gonna miss the people I usually talk to on the phone... Like, people at the pharmacy, DME, & MD offices... When they hear my name their tone changes from professional to casual like, "oh hey! How are u?" Haha awww. So the girl who will be replacing me is nice. She seems like the perfect replacement! I praise God for this answered prayer. I've been praying for someone to apply so that I could leave on the 28th and not have to worry about the office... And what happens?? God answered it! His timing was perfect! As usual!

Today went well :) now I just have to close up the office and head to the salon & get a hair cut! Yeeeeeaaa-uh!

Today was a good day :D

<3,
Am

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I'm being replaced :D

You would think this was a bad thing... But it isn't!!! Yaaaaaaay! Hahaha

<3,
Am

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WoOt wOot!

Hahahaha I am 10 days away from my last day :D

I can't wait!

<3,
Am

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Hmmmm

So I'm eavesdropping on a conversation... And I think I'm gonna be training a RN to take over my position. A LVN training a RN? Haha coooooooo!

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Am
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Seriously...

I have decided that I'm not even going to try anymore. I'm done.

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:D

Yaaaay!!! I'm so happy that next week is my last week! I just gotta get through this week! I'm so excited!!! I'm so tired of sitting at a desk & doing paperwork! Ughhhhh... I can't wait until the 28th :D I have had more than enough of this town & this job! Less than 10 work days left!

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Am

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Eeeeeeeeee :D

I am 2 weeks away from my last day! I'm so excited :D starting June 2nd, I'll be kinda busy tho! I have to take an IV/blood withdrawal class. I have to take classes to make sure I've completed all the prereqs for the lvn-rn program. And most importantly, I have to look for a new job! A job that suits me!

I'm so excited!!!

<3,
Am

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So many things to do!

Where do I start?

*sigh*

<3,
Am

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:D

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL OF THE LOVELY MAMA'S!!!

God has blessed me with such a wonderful mother! She is and has always been patient & understanding with my sister & me. She never compared us to other people. She has always encouraged us to do & be our best. She accepted us for who we are & she always believed in us. Thank you mommy for always being here for me, for being my friend when I felt like I had no one to turn to, and for always knowing the right things to say, even if it wasn't what I wanted to hear.

I love you mommy!

<3,
Am

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Not afraid by Eminem

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

..

Wow. Just heard that on the radio. I thought the lyrics were really good. Wanted to share :D

AND! I did it! My last day is May 28. I stood my ground! Thank You Lord :D

<3,
Am
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Can't sleep!

I have so much on mind right now! Its hot. I'm restless. I'm bored. And my fingers hurt because I was trying to learn a new song on my ukulele!

I can't wait for this week to be over! Thank God tomorrow is friday!

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Am

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Seriously?

I have already given my 2 week notice. In fact, when they asked me to stay the end of May, I said ok. Now they are asking me to stay till the end of July? I said we'll see but I already have my answer. And I'm standing my ground.

This is whack. They said they trust me & they are confident that they can leave the company with me even if they leave the country. They said I'm good at what I do. Ok? So what if I'm freakin good at my job?! I already made arrangements to move & go back to school in the summer. They said its hard to find a job! Who the heck are they? Why should I sacrifice more of my life for this company?

I'm angry as hell right now! And its making me sick to my stomach.

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:(

What a horrible day! Its not even over yet... I just want to go home.

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Wow.

I should have known. I always get this weird feeling in my stomach when something just isn't right at work.

*SIGH* I dislike my job even more today :(

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Am

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Ehh

I'm feeling sooo lazy today. I don't wanna go to work. Ugh... Booo!

I just feel like I'm over this job & I'm over this town. I'm just forcing myself to be here. 3 1/2 more weeks... But its taking soooooo long! I'm praying the person who will be replacing me comes soon!

Ughhh... Guess I should get ready :(

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Am

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FOOD!

Ugh, I need to start eating healthy! I feel so gross :( my food choices have been really bad since I started living on my own... I mean, when I do cook, the food I make isn't too unhealthy. but the times when I don't cook & I get really lazy... I eat out! Ugh! Like last week! Makes me sick just thinking about it! I ate out EVERYDAY!

I have an eating problem :( I eat way too much!

I need to eat healthy foods... Ugh... Easier said than done tho! I'm craving chicken wings as I type! Hahaha living at home is easier when it comes to food. When I crave something, there are PLENTY of people to stop me. Since I'm out here by myself, no one stops me. BUT! I do call my mom & jerm sometimes when I kno I shouldn't give in to junk! Hahaha

Man. I'm hungry.

<3,
Am

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