Just sayin'
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In the bible it even says to keep your word! Let your yes be yes and your no be no.
Keep your word!
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Shake it off, just shake it off.
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For real tho, I'm really going to try now. No more lazyness! Come on! I can do this! The job the Lord has set aside for me is out there. I know it! I feel it! Haha seriously tho! Its there.
I'm really excited...
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Seriously?? It was my decision to leave in May. Why would I want to go back? He said I missed my opportunity to become a director. Ehhh, that's what he thinks. My God is greater & He will open doors that no one can open. And who says I want to be a nursing director? Not everybody aspires to be a Director of Nursing...
Thanks, but no thanks!
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Then we exit the freeway & he cuts off this other car! This time, we were all stopped at a red light. He was in the lane going straight and he didn't even look over his left shoulder & he moves into the left turning lane! This prius hecka honks cuz he was about to hit him! And so the stupid guy in the truck sticks his head out and just stares down the prius! That white guy had some nerve! It was his own fault. Ughhh...
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"Enjoy yourself. That's what your 20s are for. Your 30s are to learn the lessons, your 40s are to pay for the drinks." SATC
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Sooo, I took it, & I passed! But its not really based on knowledge haha. Just based on my experience & my willingness to comply.
I was going to apply today, but I got somewhere to be. So maybe when I get home. I'm excited :D
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So blessed to be outta there!!! But I just want the rest of my paycheck so I can be done with them & move forward w/o looking back! They are filled with soooo many excuses too! Ughh whatever.
God bless them!
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But honestly, I haven't even REALLY tried finding a job. Sure, I filled out applications & turned them in, but I haven't REALLY tried. I honestly enjoyed doing absolutely nothing for the past month and a half. It was very relaxing. I may have gained more weight, but hey! I just have to start being more active! Its been nice sleeping when the sun starts to rise! And even better waking up when its almost time for lunch! Haha but I'm afraid this part of my life needs to come to an end. This chapter must close, forreal this time! Haha
This is my last week of slacking off! Next week, I will wake up early! I will physically go out & look for a job! I will quit being lazy! I declare it!
:D thank You Lord!
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:P
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Gotta get ready for Jessica's grad right now. So ill blog more later :)
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its been fun bako!
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Thank You Lord for closing this chapter in my life! & Thank You for the people I have worked with during the last 6 months! But there are more places to go & more people to meet :)
I don't know what's ahead of me but I feel so excited for what's to come! I love You :D
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Then I heard my sister say, "I smell ammonia." And I said, "hello, you just painted ur nails!" She replied, "what? I asked how do u spell pneumonia?"
Hahaha wooow!
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Go Sixers!!!
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Dang man! Why r some people so freakn heartless?! Ehhh, its just so freakn high school to see that stuff on fb, ukno? How many years have u been out of hs? Its been a while buddy, time to grow up!
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Buh-bye BAKERSFIELD!
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Today went well :) now I just have to close up the office and head to the salon & get a hair cut! Yeeeeeaaa-uh!
Today was a good day :D
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I can't wait!
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I'm so excited!!!
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God has blessed me with such a wonderful mother! She is and has always been patient & understanding with my sister & me. She never compared us to other people. She has always encouraged us to do & be our best. She accepted us for who we are & she always believed in us. Thank you mommy for always being here for me, for being my friend when I felt like I had no one to turn to, and for always knowing the right things to say, even if it wasn't what I wanted to hear.
I love you mommy!
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Wow. Just heard that on the radio. I thought the lyrics were really good. Wanted to share :D
AND! I did it! My last day is May 28. I stood my ground! Thank You Lord :D
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I can't wait for this week to be over! Thank God tomorrow is friday!
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This is whack. They said they trust me & they are confident that they can leave the company with me even if they leave the country. They said I'm good at what I do. Ok? So what if I'm freakin good at my job?! I already made arrangements to move & go back to school in the summer. They said its hard to find a job! Who the heck are they? Why should I sacrifice more of my life for this company?
I'm angry as hell right now! And its making me sick to my stomach.
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*SIGH* I dislike my job even more today :(
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I just feel like I'm over this job & I'm over this town. I'm just forcing myself to be here. 3 1/2 more weeks... But its taking soooooo long! I'm praying the person who will be replacing me comes soon!
Ughhh... Guess I should get ready :(
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I have an eating problem :( I eat way too much!
I need to eat healthy foods... Ugh... Easier said than done tho! I'm craving chicken wings as I type! Hahaha living at home is easier when it comes to food. When I crave something, there are PLENTY of people to stop me. Since I'm out here by myself, no one stops me. BUT! I do call my mom & jerm sometimes when I kno I shouldn't give in to junk! Hahaha
Man. I'm hungry.
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Then I wanna learn Honey Baby by Three Plus! That's gonna be my wedding hula song :) I already got who my hula girls will be in mind! Haha and I already know who I want to be playing it on the ukulele & who will be singing it! Next is song I'm learning is Stuck On You by Ekolu (originally by Lionel Richie.)
Haha learning how to play an instrument is fun! *sigh* I forgot how much I like island music! Now if only I lost weight so I can go back to doing hula & tahitian! *sigh* those were the days! One day... but if that day doesn't come, I'm gonna make my future daughter do it! Hahaha
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But hey! At least I only have 4 weeks! Hahaha and who knows, maybe once they find a replacement, they won't need me to stay for the rest of the month!
At least now I'm finally moving forward & doing something about it. Tomorrow I'll be giving my apartment management my 30 day notice! Whoooo! This chapter of my life will be closing. And another one is just waiting to begin!!! I'm really excited :D
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The houses were town houses, kinda like the neighborhood I grew up in when I has a kid. It must have been cold because I had my pink polka dot comforter wrapped around me. It seemed like I was wearing wat I was wearing in reality. Does that make sense? The clothes I wore to sleep were the clothes I was wearing in my dream. Hahaha ok. So I'm walking around and then the pavement turns to dirt, and then to sand and before I knew it, I was at the beach. When I got to the beach, it looked like I was on another planet. Hahaha the moon and the sky looked really weird. It seemed like the sun was setting. Anyway, I turned around and the town houses were still there. But now there were lots of trees. So I felt like I made a wrong turn so I started walking back to where I came from.
So I'm walking, then I reach this area with a bunch of tarp tents and our whole youth group is sitting at a table. I look around and we are all basically in some foreign country. So we're chillen there for a while. It was a cloudy looking place. For some reason, I was thinking Indonesia. Anyway, we all get up and start walking towards this plaza. But we all see fireballs falling from the sky in the distance. A few friends & I were at one end of the plaza while the younger kids in the group were way ahead of us. Then we see this massive fireball coming towards us. Then specks of the fire (idk its really called) fell on charlie! So we all run towards him & try to get the fire out. It was on his ear, then spread to his clothes. The techniques we were using weren't working. So I finally took my blanket and tried to cover the flames with that. It works in the movies right? Haha and idk why I was still wearing my blanket. Anyway. The fire wasn't like a flaming fire. Looked like it was trying to go inside and it started to glow like gold or something. So now we're all freaking out. And he screams like how they do when people are in pain in the movies. So I pat him down and hug him tight with my blanket. Then I woke up.
I had to share. Its the most vivid dream I had in a while.
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Why oh why did I tell the apartment management that I would be staying here for 12 months? I'm going to the management office after work to check how much I would owe if I broke the agreement... Because I cannot take it anymore!
If I can afford to pay it, then I can leave! I don't need to stay. And why should I have to? Right? If God says to stay, then I will. But if I can go home, then I'm going home!
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Argh! Whatever... The work day is thisclose to being over & I'm going home tmrw :)
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Well, its been a struggle... But I survived it & I'm continuing to survive it. Its made me stronger :) Thank You Lord for getting me through it!
Maybe it would have been an easier transition from dependent to Miss Independent if I was a couple hundred miles closer to home... It was like, BAAAAMMM! Goodbye family, friends, everything else! Ur on ur own! LOL its ok... I am thankful for everything I've experienced here. Good, bad, awkward. Hahaha I had to experience it all for a reason :)
I'm excited for these upcoming months tho :)
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Lol idk. Ok.
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I met a nurse who worked in one a few months ago & she liked it! Whats seriously holding me back from applying to one are my parents & bf. Doesn't sit too well with them... Hehe and I totally understand. But its something that I've always wondered about since I finished nursing school.
I wanna at least try working in a prison. Even if its just for a few months. Doesn't hurt to try!
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Please pray for my grandma Rosalia (my dad's mom.) She's in the PI & she's very sick.
Thank you & God bless
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Lord, be my guide. Give me wisdom as we try to resolve these issues today. Lord, I rebuke feeling fearful & nervous, in the name of Jesus! I pray that You take my worries & stress away Lord. You have the power to resolve issues that seem impossible. I trust in You Lord! Glory to Your name Jesus! No weapon formed against me shall prosper! I am victorious in Christ Jesus! Hallelujah!
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I get to go back to sj later this afternoon too!!!
I love You Lord :)
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"It's" still the same & "it's" still not for me. But its the things that happened today & the people that I've talked to that lifted my spirit! Crazy that a truck that almost hit me made my day better than it has been in weeks haha... God works in such mysterious ways. I feel like He opened my eyes to see the same ol' things in a new way.
God is so good! I may not have everything I want but I sure do have everything I need. He never fails me. Never had, never will. That's one thing I can always count on :)
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I am truly protected by my God!
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Hahahaha. Therapeutic communications... Let the pt verbally express their emotions...
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I'm tired. And the lights are already off. My dogs are falling asleep on me. The reruns of my boy george lopez just aren't cutting it tonight. I should sleep now!
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Just gotta keep on going & trusting that the Lord will be w/me w/every step I take. Even if I took a route that made me stray, He will redirect me :) like GPS, but so so so soooo much greater :)
Thank You Jesus! I love You!
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Like seriously. Smells like poo all over the place. Not always such a good idea to take a deep breath outside. The air ain't so fresh... Naw mean?!
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Haha. It was jam packed with youth & I was sitting next to u. And the girl who HECKA liked u was sitting on ur other side! Hahahaha but I got u :) and she wasn't supposed to be there either... She just got in the van & we were all "uhhh, ok?"
Hahahaha maan. Those were the days! I think about it & I just wanna crack up. It never gets old! Hahaha
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I hear san jose calling my name...
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Seriously! Maybe some people don't personally know anyone who is gay... But they are still human & they have feelings.
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I've been feeling like a failure on so many different levels lately. And God impressed in my heart to read that email a little more carefully to understand. And I get it now! Thank You Lord! No matter how many times the enemy tries to convince me that I'm failing, I'm not :)
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Maybe God just wants me to keep quiet for now. Haha that's why I can't figure out how to even describe what's been bothering me. I mean, I can try. Haha but it doesn't feel like the right time. Obviously... since the words can't even come out of me!
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Can u pray for me? There are things that I am unsure of doing & I need guidance.
Thank you :)
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And maybe after my sister gets off work, I can convince her to get pho with me!
I miss my asian food!!! Haha
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So glad I can go home this weekend!!! Can't wait :)
And you know, God is soo good! Whenever I feel like there is just no way, He reminds me that there IS a way & He makes the impossible, POSSIBLE! He is so great! So amazing! WOW :)
I'm like, so filled with His peace. I just have this peace & joy & I just KNOW that this is God! No matter how stressful & crazy things get, just taking a moment to breath & remembering to trust in Him in ALL aspects of my life, He's got it. He has my back. And a friend reminded me last week of this verse- Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Thanks Angela :) shout out! Haha
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Mom: Morning nakkong, the joy of the Lord is our strength, be happy para hindi ka mag mukhang matanda, love u nakkong maganda, God bless
Hahaha soo funny! I've been stressing out a lot at work lately & I've been thinking A LOT & feeling kinda sad... & so I've been talking to my parents about it. Her text made me literally lol. Hahaha
Just in case you don't understand it she says: Morning my child, the joy of the Lord is our strength, be happy so that you don't look old, love u my beautiful child, God bless
Hahaha its kind of an inside joke. Cuz she was telling me that if I think & stress out too much, its gonna age me. & she was saying that she hopes that the next time she sees me, I don't look 5 yrs older. Hahaha
It made me smile :)
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Lord, help me get through today...
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I learned a lot out here though. I think I've done a lot of growing up. I learned to survive & be independent from my parents. I learned how to cook food that I can actually eat! Haha. I finally learned how to manage my money correctly... Haha I can finally keep my "room" in order. And most importantly, I have a greater appreciation for everyone & everything in my life.
Maybe God had to take me out of my comfort zone so I could see what He has blessed me with. And if I didn't take this job, I wouldn't have seen or experienced all of that.
But I still miss home :(
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So I had to go to the office for like 20 minutes after lunch & I decided to walk. It was sunny when I left my apartment & I took the 10 minute route. On my way back, I decided to walk through the neighborhood, the long way... So I'm walking & then it starts to get dark. Its windy & it got really cold. Now I'm thinking, "craaap man!" I'm like a mile away. & so I'm praying it doesn't rain...
And praise God! It didn't. It started to sprinkle once I got to the plaza next to my complex. But now it's pouring! Craaaaaazy! God is always watching out for me! Even in the little things. Like walking to & from work :) I believe He prompted me to go to the office @ a certain time so that I can get back before it started to rain. Yup!
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Haha I finished 3 chapters today :)
Hahahaha ok yea...
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2 more weeks & it'll be 4 months since I moved out of my parents house in essj. A little over 2 months & ill be here for 6 months.
I can do this. Yes. Lord, I can do this.
Had a chat w/my cousin yesterday through text. Haha. I miss having company. It succccckkks to be alone. I could go to that church I visited & make some friends. But what would be the point if I didn't feel at peace or connected w/anyone there? You know? I need friends in bakersfield :( that are my age... Haha but Yay for unlimited text & mobile to mobile :) hahaha the # of texts in our phone bill reaches thousands... I bet if I was in essj, it wouldn't be that high... Hahaha
I know I've said this before but I truly appreciate my family, bf, friends & pets(nacho&carlton hehe) a whole lot more than I did before. God gives us a limited amount of time here on earth. Life is precious. We're all getting older & I don't wanna look back on times when I could have loved certain people a little bit more. You know?
Because I'm honestly tired of having people come in & out of my life. Looking down on me for what I haven't accomplised... Tired of being fooled that I can trust certain people & in the end, they turn on me... Tired of not having consistent friendships. Tired of all the betrayal & backbiting. Tired of the competition & drama that go along with being a girl! Tired of the PLASTIC!
Hahhaha I'M SO OVER IT! I just wanna be your friend :) but if you don't feel the same, then that's cool too!
I was also tired of helping people. Cuz when they were down & out, I was there. I had yo back! But what about when I was down & out? Nothing. Or if there weren't any problems & I just wanted a friend to talk to? Ohhh you've just been really busy? Ok... But God showed me that its ok if the people I was there for, aren't there for me. I need Him, not them :)
God has blessed me with amazing people! I don't post on fb, twitter, etc calling them out. But I sure hope u guys know who you are :) And that, my friends, is why I miss home... I miss all of the awesome people who keep me sane in this crazy world!!! LOL and when I start missing my amazing family, bf, friends & pets... I start thinking of ways to get back to essj, permenantly! Hahaha never thought I'd say that!
I should sleep now. Goodnight :)
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Cuz you know that being a newbie in the healthcare field, some seasoned nurses & doctors will eat you alive!
Well, I just wanted to share that experience. It was exciting for me because I was being taken seriously!
Hahaha ok, GOODNIGHT :)
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Tomorrow, I plan on making quiche :) I have a lot of eggs, cheese, & frozen spinach. Just hjave to buy some other ingredients... And then ill put them in a muffin pan. So I can eat one when I'm on the go! Whooohooo! I think ill freeze them too!
I'm thinking of making a steak for dinner tomorrow too! I have sirloin steak that my mom offered me to take hehehe. I can't wait to sleep in and make a pot of coffee. I'm really craving some coffee right now. Oh! I'm trying to get used to drinking coffee without cream/milk. Now I can just drink coffee w/ 2 splenda. But on the weekends, ill take a break & indulge in cream for my coffee hahaha.
So besides cooking & serving my food in cafe world, I pretty much have nothing planned for this weekend...
Ughhh sucks. oh well, gotta do what you gotta do...
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But I wanna give up rice! Haha I don't do lent... But I think for "lent" ill give up rice... Hahahaha I can lose some weight too :)
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I'm really excited to start walking to & from work. I see a lot of people doing that all the time! The area seems pretty safe. Lots of people go jogging around here too!
I think the plan will be to put all my work stuff in my backpack. Get to work early, then change into work clothes. Then after work, change back into reg clothes. So I don't walk in dressy shoes. And so I could look more like a student :)
That would save on gas, even though it doesn't take much gas to get to work anyway, which saves me some $$, & it helps the environment. One less car in this polluted city! I have my pepper spray just in case :) hahaha
I'm so excited :) I'm looking forward to it!
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I feel well rested :)
Gotta finish eating breakfast then get ready for work.
I feel like I'm ready to face whatever comes my way today! Thank You Lord!
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Right now, I'm really feeling like I don't wanna go back! Ugggghhhh, it sucks. Trying to keep positive & trying to remind myself that living in that city is not that bad. And as long as God is with me, I'll be able to get through this...
*sigh* I have days when I feel like packing up my stuff & move back to SJ. Today is one of those days.
Maybe it won't actually be that bad tomorrow... Keep me in ur prayers...
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& for the past hour, my mom & I have been texting hahaha cuz my dad is apparently having a deep conversation & my mom doesn't wanna interrupt. Haha so we're texting until they leave.
I think its interesting how my relationship with my mom & dad is now... Its changed & its a lot better :) we've always been close but things r really different. W/my sister too. I haven't argued with her or my parents since I moved out of the house hahaha
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I feel so blessed! Jesus loves me & shows me that He is alive & working in my life, even in the smallest things. He is a great God! I'm so thankful!
He provides my needs, not my greed :) know what I mean?
When I start worrying about finances or if I start worrying about how my refrigerator is starting to get empty & how I can't afford to pay for another basket of groceries or household supplies until my next paycheck... God always provides. It really is difficult when ur first starting out & ur not under ur parent's roof anymore. Besides the excitement of being out on your own, there's a lot to learn. This is reality. But He wants to show me that its not my parents that I should depend on... I need to depend on Him for everything!
I could easily quit my job & find a better high paying job in SJ... Live with my parents & spend my $$ on other things besides my tuition, rent, utilities, & transportation. To some people, that would be the SMART, most LOGICAL thing to do...
But my heart tells me that I need to be here for a while. Even when I have almost nothing... & I'm on my last dime... God is my everything & that's all I need to survive out here! Thank You Lord for Your blessings!
"Lord, You never let go of me"
Ever since I moved out of my parents house, I went through things that I never imagined I would have to go through. My parents were right when I used to complain to them about petty things. Those issues seemed so big before. & they would tell me that it's just the way it is & my complaints were small compared to what is to come. It wasn't that they were telling me my problems were insignificant... But there are bigger problems to deal with. Does that make sense? Idk. But it makes a whole lotta sense to me now.
Anyway, sometimes I get lonely here.. Or really really bored... But God reminds me that He's with me & He will ALWAYS be with me, even when everyone else is so far away. Since I don't go to a bible study anymore or have anyone here to share my testimonies with... I'm going to write everything here. So that maybe someone who stumbles upon my blog will read how great God is & what He is doing in my life.
This was just supposed to be a blog about my nursing adventures, how my job is, what I'm doing, etc. But every nurse has their own story. It doesn't have to be all about nursing. God put the desire to be a nurse in my heart. He opened doors that led me here. He is in ultimate control. God is guiding my paths & taking me through this adventure. God is so awesome! Just had to share... Even if this was a really loooooong post :)
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Not much goes on here... & I get homesick. A LOT!!! But we all have to make sacrifices in our lives sometimes... God allows us to go through certain things in life so that we can grow... Righhht??? Yes. Yes He does! He is the vine & we are the branches. He's got to prune us sometimes so we can grow stronger in faith. Have more passion in serving Him. More compassion for those who need Him. He's gotta take us out of our comfort zone when we get too comfortable (like 4 hours away... Haha) so that we turn to Him & trust in Him COMPLETELY! God's got a plan! HELLOOOO?! Haha
God is soo good! He never leaves my side :)
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Muussst. Be. Niiiiiiicce.
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SJ in abt 3 more weeks. Big 'ol *SIGH*
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CUZ ITS SOOOOO BORING HERE!
Omg... Hahahah if the roads weren't all wet & slick, I would have gone to sj tonite.
Ay nako!
-_-
Anyway, watching chelsea lately... Hecka funnnnnnyy! K nite.
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But yea, that water is at least a foot deep.
The clouds covered the sun. Booo.
Ok. Yea.
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Idk. There just wasn't a spark. Hahaha or you know, there wasn't that "ahhhh I belong here" kinda feeling. I thought i would feel that or something. I felt welcomed tho! Very friendly people. I wouldn't mind going to a service. But I made it clear to the members that my stay in bksfld isn't permanent. I told them about "my church." I even told them that I was looking for a church to visit while I'm in town on the weekends...
So uh yea. Idk about continuing to go to their bible study. Maybe just their service. Idk. Idk. Idk... But what I do know is that God is good!
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Like, why was I offered this job in Bakersfield? Why did I accept it? God MUST have a plan for me here right?!?! Riight??
At least half of my stay here has been a struggle. I cried about my job in the past 2 months more than I've cried in the past year. That's a lot of tears maaaaaan. I felt like I made a huge mistake by taking this job & getting a 1 year lease on my apartment...
Idk why He placed me here but I have finally found a church to go to. Well, I found their website & i was hesitant to go to a service. Then He brought someone to me.
Now I'm going to a bible study :) I wasn't gonna go but this lady was all "this was not an accident." Hahaha maaaan. And you know its not. God planned it. Its sooo funny and crazy the way He works. God is good!
<3,
Amafel
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Am
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It's going to be raining a lot this week!!! I enjoy the wet weather but I know its not safe for me to keep driving back & forth during the rainy season. Boooo! Idk when my next visit will be :(
I'm having trouble sleeping after all the coffee I drank today. 1 1/2 cups of coffee in the morning & a starbucks double shot energy drink in the mid-afternoon. Everyone's fast asleep. Including my doggy dogs. Haha. I fell asleep in my parents room while they had guests over for about an hour. But Ok. I should try sleeping again.
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Am
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Am
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*SIGH*
<3,
Am
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Am
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I honestly had knots in my stomach because I knew how much work needed to be done today. Praise God for giving me the wisdom!
I'm so tired... I just wanna nap. But secret life of the american teenager will be on soon & I need to serve my food for cafe world haha
Today went well :) thank you Lord!
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That's one of the reasons why I'm having a hard time adjusting here... I miss my family, bf, friends, church, my pets... I feel lonely here sometimes. But I know that my God is with me :) It's His plan & it's better than what I would've come up with :)
If He wasn't with me, I would have moved back to sj a loooonnngg time ago lol.
& Thank You Lord for getting me home safely. Drove thru some parts of I-5 in dense fog last nite. It was so thick that I was barely able to see 100 ft in front of me! Scaryyyy :( because some drivers continue to drive around 70mph... I don't ever wanna do that again!!!
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Not sure what's in store but for some reason, I'm really excited about this year.
I'm thankful for new beginnings! We can start this year off fresh & new. And we can move on & not look back. What's done is done :) just keep moving forward!
Today was an awesome day :)
Ended the year with an annual dinner w/a few close friends. Then jumped and shook coins w/the family & bf @ midnight. My dad led us in a prayer to start things off right! Ate lots of good food :) Then this morning, i watched Avatar for the 2nd time w/the bf. Then had lunch @ Ko Sing. Hung out around the house for a while. Then watched The Ugly Truth w/the bf, sister, & her bf.
Thank you Lord for another year!
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